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It was 6:52 and I had made sure I had Alex's e-mail entered and I was ready for her. At 7 exactly, her user on-line icon appeared. I loved her name.
Hot Stuff says:
hey!
Midnight Sailor says:
hey, nice name.
Hot Stuff says:
I know, I'm hot, duh. what's up w/yours?
Midnight Sailor says:
whats wrong with it? i like staying up all night, i like the ocean, i just combined them.
Hot Stuff says:
I get it now. Well, how r u?
Midnight Sailor says:
good, and u?
Hot Stuff says:
my head hurts, uve been running through my mind all day, lol!!
Midnight Sailor says:
good one, not like havent heard that one a million times
Hot Stuff says:
you know u like it.
Midnight Sailor says:
well, we should be trying to get to know each other, u know? but i know like the where u from crud from marisa. i swear i know ur whole family history, shes never really talked to much about u tho.
Hot Stuff says:
she hasnt ever said anything about me to u?
Midnight Sailor says:
not really. she told me she had a younger sister. she never even told me u were deaf.
Hot Stuff says:
shes ashamed of me
Midnight Sailor says:
no shes not, u just never came up i guess
Hot Stuff says:
shes embarrassed to be with me in public.
Midnight Sailor says:
she brought u to the video shoot didnt she?
Hot Stuff says:
yeah, but thats only because I beg her to go with her to rehearsals, videos, tours, anything. and not just to see you guys, but to spend some time with her. when shes not
touring with u shes always with her boyfriend and doesnt do anything with me. especially since i went deaf.
Midnight Sailor says:
it cant be that bad
Hot Stuff says:
it is! the last thing i ever really did, just her and me, was when we went shopping together and saw a movie. think about it, movie, hear, that was like before 97. a week or 2 later, i lost my hearing. now shes embarrassed to be seen w/me
Midnight Sailor says:
i had no idea. im sorry.
Hot Stuff says:
nothing u can be sorry for, only me
Midnight Sailor says:
what do u mean?
Hot Stuff says:
if it wasnt for me hanging on her all the time, her life would be so much easier
Midnight Sailor says:
dont talk like that! ur a wonderful person, alex, u really are. i wish u could realize that!
Hot Stuff says:
thanx. but somedays i dont feel that way at all. sometimes i feel like theres no place for me in the world. sometimes that how marisa makes me feel, but i know its not her fault. im the one who ended up this way, im the one who was born.
Midnight Sailor says:
there is a place for u alex, here with me is a place for u. ur a very interesting woman and i love every minute that we talk.
Hot Stuff says:
thats sweet but why would u want to be w/ a deaf girl, my sister doesnt, my mom never had the chance cause she died as u know, my dad doesnt want me either. he just give me
a place to sleep and food to eat. after that, im not suppost to expect anything more.
Midnight Sailor says:
thats horrible. if u ever need anything, come to me. i can give u all the love and support ull ever need.
Hot Stuff says:
thank u nick. thats the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me. but i dont know if ull be able to handle being w/somebody whose so different.
Midnight Sailor says:
thats what i love about u, if every girl was the same, the world would be so dull. u arent different, ur special. a special person who i care about.
Hot Stuff says:
listen i gtg. Marisas probably getting pissed that im hogging the phone line when she wants to call her b/f. i told u she puts him before me. she always calls him at 7:30 every night and its 7:35 so i better go.
Midnight Sailor says:
screw marisa
Hot Stuff says:
i dont want to make her mad at me, i have a hard enough time with her as it is. how bout we talk tomorrow at well 7 cause she always talks for hours to Richard
Midnight Sailor says:
ok. talk tomorrow. how bout we talk every nite at 7?
Hot Stuff says:
sure. but i gtg, bye
She logged off. I had no idea that her family was neglecting her. I want to go and comfort her. "What am I saying?" I suddenly asked myself out loud. I had just met the girl a day ago. I had never talked about a girl that way until I knew her for at least a few months. Maybe there was something really strong there that made me think that way. Maybe she was the one. Yes, she is different, but to me, being different is beautiful. I would hate to go out with the same type of girl over and over. Who cares if she cant hear, so what? I cant do a lot of things and no one complains. I just hoped Marisa had the decency to start acting like a big sister and stop treating her like shit. She had no idea what she was doing to her. She was hurting her. I had to make sure I told Marisa that when we would meet the next morning.
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I came into the corner coffee house at 9:01. Marisa was already waiting.
"How are you?"
"You're late."
"One minute, sue me!"
"I ordered for you."
"Thanks."
"Ok, lets get right to business. How much do you know?"
"I know how are you and I'm fine."
"Man I got a lot of work ahead of me."
"Yep."
"Well, well try to have a normal conversation and everything we say, I'll teach you to sign, ok?"
"Sounds good."
"Sounds....(she signed it)...good.(she signed that) Now you try." I imitated her movements.
"Good job." She signed that also. "Do you want me to teach you the alphabet then words?" She signed everything she said.
"Yeah, sure." We went through the alphabet 500 times.
She then said, "Try and spell your name." I slowly did the motions. "Good. Now try Marisa, one s." I did it again. "Alright, now Alex." I signed a-l-e-x. "Ok, I think you have that down."
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~(2 hours later)
".....and we've been living with dad ever since." Marisa had been tell me her life story slowly so I could catch the hand movements.
"How has Alex taken all that?"
"I dont know. She spends most of her time in her room. She doesn't like to do much else I guess."
"Maybe if you did stuff with her, she'd come out of her room more often."
"What are you talking about? We always do stuff."
"Like what?"
"Um well, we, uh, what's it to you anyway?"
"You should do stuff with her. She thinks you're ashamed of her."
"Well if you spent all your time with a deaf person, wouldnt you be a tad bit embarrassed too?"
"Not really, that's why I'm gonna ask her on a date, in public."
"Well, I hope you two have a wonderful life together, I gotta get going."
"Ease up on her Marisa!" I yelled as she headed for the door. "She just wants you to love her!" She slammed the door shut. The entire place was looking at me like a
side-show freak. "What are you all looking at?" I said. I sat back down and finished my coffee, paid the bill, and went back to my house.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~(7:00)
Shark boy says:
hey-ya!
moonless nite says:
hi
Shark boy says:
how r u?
moonless nite says:
wouldnt u like to know
Shark boy says:
whats eating you?
moonless nite says:
i cant believe u told marisa what i told u
Shark boy says:
i wanted her to know that u were being her by that kinda treatment
moonless nite says:
i can take care of myself, i dont need a guy i only met 72 hours ago to start to try to protect me already. im a big girl
Shark boy says:
i was only thinking of you. i only want the best for u.
moonless nite says:
maybe i know whats best for me, not u.
Shark boy says:
im sorry!
Then it appeared: moonless nite cannot be contacted. He/She is off-line.
"Damn it!" I said. I went into her profile to see if her number was listed, but then it occurred to me, she cant hear, what good's phone? I'm so stupid, I'm a friggin idiot.
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